Tag: personal

why am I jealous?

I’m scared of being ignored.

I hate the feeling of being that one off person who stands there silently while the others have a great time.

It’s happened too many times in the past.

Now, on tumblr, I’m feeling it again.

The blogs I follow, I consider them friends, but I get this bile taste in my throat whenever they rp or talk to other people and not me.

not saying they can’t have more than one friend, it’s that they interact with them a lot more than with me. And that makes me feel like they push me to the side, like we aren’t really friends.

I’m too afraid to tell these blogs personally about this, but I hope putting this out here will be a bit easier.

My anxiety is awful and I just hate to be the jealous type.

How’s shirley feeling?

tw, blood, braces, teeth, mouth gore, cartoon gore, negative feelings

I just want to hurt my mouth. But I’m way to afraid of getting hurt to actually do anything to hurt my body, so I drew my animal self (a green deer) harming her mouth. It does make me feel a little better, but not much.

Based on this picture:

shirley confession

“In general, I hate it when my friends are dating. Because I feel excluded, and the original form of pals and fun are broken into more time to show affection and forget the other person is still there. I’ve experienced the third wheel issue too many times and it makes me anxious and paranoid- I think that they will forget me, leave me behind, or just…walk off.”

personal, please talk to me privately if you want

So I’ve been cutting back on eating and stuff. Not on purpose.

Like, there’s nothing in the kitchen that I want to eat for breakfast, so I’ll eat a bag of goldfish, or nothing at all. And sometimes I’ll skip lunch just because there’s nothing to eat or I’m ‘too lazy’ to make something myself. I also eat too fast, according to my mother. I don’t notice, but she says it takes me less than three minutes to eat. I don’t know what to make of this.